Your emotional bank account is overdrawn

 Please make a deposit.  I've never really thought about how I can make deposits and withdraws from my own emotional bank account.  I watch the numbers in my money accounts rise and fall, it's factual. logical. you spend the money, you earn the money the numbers don't lie.  When I have something happen that drains my account, nearly empty, I need to fill it up again before I can keep going. I feel drained right now. It took everything I had to do the planning session for the week. Kids here, kids there, money, schedules. I was running low and now I'm empty. So how to fill up my account? How to bring my feels to where I am able to give myself and others the compassion we all need and deserve. 

This is the moment to go inward and upward. This is the time I get to give myself what I need.  It seems like this is the part that should come easy. What do YOU want Andrea? What things are going to serve as distraction and what actions will fill my pitcher? Which of my senses need to be satisfied right now? I feel like a toddler or even an infant right now. Not knowing what I want or need and just wanting to throw a tantrum until someone offers me the thing that will quench the thirst in my soul. 

It seems like this will be exhausting and time consuming, but I want to add this.  When you are present in your body, in the moment when and where you are, you can find satisfaction in what is around you.  I can take pleasure in many things when I take the time to be in the place where I am. When I take time to feel my body, smell the air, breathe, taste, sense. Just the very act of consciously breathing can make a deposit in my emotional account. I've been aware that I can make deposits and withdraws from others' accounts, I can fully appreciate now how that becomes possible by having my own account full, something I can do for myself. 

I'm working on a list of things that fill my account. I love this idea. I'm going to keep working on it.